Carolina Liar- Show Me What Im Looking For

Wait, Im wrong
Should've done better than this Please, I'll be strong
Im finding it hard to resist

So show me what Im looking for Save me, I'm lost Oh lord, I've been waiting for you I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused

Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Oh lord
Dont let go I've wanted this far too long

Mistakes become regrets I've learned to love abuse
Please show me what I'm looking for Save me, Im lost Oh lord, I've been waiting for you I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused

Show me what Im looking for
Show me what Im looking for
Oh lord Show me what I'm looking for

Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for

Save me, I'm lost Oh lord, I've been waiting for you I'll pay any cost
Just save me from being confused Wait, I'm wrong I can't do better than this I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused

Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Oh lord

Whats going on????

Everything ive known, is failing me.
Everything about me, is caving in.
My family is crumbling.
My religion is crushing.
My world is colliding.
Im confused, desperate, scared, depressed, needy, desirous.
I want to scream, REALLY loud.
I want to cry, let the tears stream down my face and never stop.
What is going on? Who am I? Where did I go? Is there no innocence? Is there no good in the world?
How do I do it? How do I talk to him? How do I make these negative feelings go away?

God, if there really is a god, please please please help me. Help me know who I am. Help me know your plan for me. Help me pray. Help me have the spirit with me. Help my family. Just help!

Im afraid im going to do something stupid. Make a mistake ill regret.
My testimony is dwindling.
My happiness is burning.
My thoughts are turning.
My desires are changing.
Who am I? What am I suppose to be? To become?
Why? Why is it like this?  Why must I be the one? I cant get through this trial, I hate it and I want it to end, now.

Bubbles: Making smiles on lil faces

04-02-2014 Wednesday

My mom bought grayson bubbles while I was at track practice and when we got home we had some fun! That same day we went to the park and ate subway sandwiches!  We brought birdie, our lil doggie, who still barks at everyone, (but we are working on that.) Grayson had fun going down the slides and running from julian. I enjoyed reading my drivers ed pamphlet and texting jace harrison. :)

I added a picture of birdie our toy shnauzer

Summer Babies

03-31-2014 Monday
This was actually spring break! I made strawberry lemonade slushies pulled out the shades and hat. Finally my painted toes were wiggling in sandals and my lil bros were happy! Love my family!

Large group festival

03-27-2014 Thursday
We had a choir festival at chiawana high school. I was singing a duet with natalie mcshane. It was called for the beauty of the earth, you know classic hymn! But we were also having a different piano arrangement, it was awesome! 

Natalie is my lil freshmen friend who always makes my day! Shes crazy funny and I laugh at all her "boy" problems while still trying to bw a good friend:)

So we has to wear our dresses and wait for the bus to pick us up. (We're in treble choir --an all girls choir) I took this pic on the bus on our way there!!

The next pic we didnt know where to look

Jokes On Me

So, you know what...Chloe is gone to Indonesia and ive got her Samsung Galaxy S ll. Now I have access to all my photos and I want to remember them and look back. So maybe this blog will have many of my photos with descriptions of the day. Maybe ill alternate between this and my journal:)